singing....

so lately, i have found myself singing... a lot... in the car, at home, while showering, walking the halls at work....
now, i am known to spontaneously break out into song, so the singing itself is nothing surprising... but i have been doing it more and more, sometimes without even noticing.. and when someone else mentions it, that is when i realise i was singing, humming, whatever... weird.

i would love to join a community chior to continue my singing, but i worry about not being able to go to all the rehearsals and/or concerts because of this schedule i work... that is also why i decided against trying out for community theater again... i would miss so much because of working at night.....

i also decided i really need to find a church to go to and maybe joing the choir there? i mean, i work nights, right?... so i could go to church on sundays... but again, practice is the hard part because of this rotating schedule i work... i'd only be able to go half the time.... i wonder if i should try...

sometimes i wonder if working this schedule that i love affects more of my life than i realise.........

So this morning i watched the season finale of Greys Anatomy... which is my favorite show... the one my husband knows never to interrupt me during unless it's while i am fastforwarding thru a commercial.....
Well... All i can say about this episode is "holy fuck!"... And i am not one to curse... But "holy fuck!"... If you saw it, and are as addicted as i am, then you will understand...
The problem i am having now is i can't get it out of my head... I have always made a point of avoiding violent movies, books and/or shows that put me in close personal contact with a murderers thoughts and feelings... It gets too real for me that way, and i cannot handle it.... But this show did just that... I was practically having an anxiety attack while watching it, but i couldn't stop because it's "my show".... I thought i could deal.... Apparently not because i just can't get it out of my head now... I don't know what to do to make it go away... And i know this sounds rediculous, but i am afraid to go to sleep today because i don't want to dream about it....
There are some things i know i can handle... But others... Well, i guess i am not as strong as i thought....

there's no place like home...

Yesterday i spent the daylight... When in reality i should have been sleeping... Painting a room at my parents beach house... Have you ever had one of those days where you find yourself hating and loving something at the same time? Well that was my day... I love to paint... But i would have rather been sleeping.... Hell, i would have rather been at my own house, with my own husband, and doing something lazy like play xbox... But no... I am a good daughter and let my parents kidnap me for the weekend to do manual labor.....
So i woke up really early this morning, and spent the majority of this morning painting yet another room.... This one looks like a lemon threw up.... and poppa calls it "ungodly yellow"... but momma picked it out, so he deals.. lol
so now it is the afternoon, and i am ready to go home.. to my husband... to my pets.. and curl up next to each other on the couch and do somethig lazy... like play xbox... but i have to wait for momma to decide if she is coming home with me (she drove me here) or if she will stay the extra day with poppa and i drive myself home... a 5 hour trip... during the daylight... when i am usually sleeping right now... not something to look forward to...
so i wait for her to decide...
this is one of those days i wish for a pair of ruby slippers....... or a star trek teleporter.

So here i am in st augustine... The one place i would rather not be.... But momma voluntold me to come because she needs my help... And of course i love my momma and couldn't say no... Not when i didn't have anything else to do this weekend... So here i am.
The window guys are installing the new windows... A beach house needs good windows after all... But we can't start painting because of the dust and mess they cause... So i am bored.
Technically, i should try to sleep some since i have now been awake for 23 hours.... Worked 12 last night and chatterd the entire ride here (5 hours) to keep momma awake... But i can't.... The window guys are too loud.... Oh well...
I did get a haircut after we ate lunch tho... The almost-a-mullet look is gone... Yay... New hair always makes a girl feel refreshed...

people of walmart?

i am the last person to sit here and rip on other poeple... but sometimes the story just HAS to be told.....

before work today, i stopped at walmart to get some juice and munchies for my shift tonight..... why oh why did i not have a camera on me?

i swear i saw the weirdest looking people in wal-mart today... usually the freaks come out at night... but this was 5:15 in the afternoon...

i saw no less than 3 women who REALLY should not have been wearing what they were... i saw a rather large woman looking at bikini's.. thank goodness she wasn't wearing one of them... and at least 4 men whose clothes were so dirty they left a mess on the ground around them....

i just want to scream "people! look in a mirror!"

but the worst was the 5 year old who was dressed like a 17 year old Lindsay Lohan/Miley Cyrus/Brittney Spears (take your pick)... and the mother, who HAD to have been older than me and much much frumpier, was dressed exactly the same....

holy crow.. talk about dressing out of your age range.... lol

i wish i had had a camera.

So here i wonder just how mobile blogging works.... Will i get to complain about the smelly woman in front of me in line at walmart?.. Perhaps this is exactly what i pay for unlimited texting for...;)

look ma.. i'm blogging!

well.. i decided it was about time i stopped going into the chatroom on my favorite website.. alone... and having a conversation with myself when i am bored...
so now i have this lovely little blog... so i can come here and ramble on so actual people can read it.. ;-)
i must say, i will miss those illuminating chats with myself in that lonely little chat room... but i'll live.. ;-)

now to figure out what i want to talk about.. ;-)

and wow... i cannot believe just how hard it is to find that perfect layout to make my blog look pretty... i must have tried on.. oh.. 14 by now? and adjkusted the colors.. but none seem to "fit" me...